Lazy implies a lack of motivation. Resting implies motivation, but intentional pausing of motion. Lazy is de-motivated. Resting is intentional. Resting is rejuvenating. Lazy is negative momentum.
I know I need to rest. I know I am not lazy. I know I work very hard...at all the things I do. And yet I still feel guilty about resting. Why is that?
It's not that I can't stop doing. I can pause and be intentional, but in the back of my mind I'm always thinking. I'm thinking I could just go put one load of laundry in. Then it will wash while I rest. I can just wash one sink of dishes. They can dry while I'm resting. I can just fold that one load of laundry. Then I won't have to stare at it while I hang out with my kids. I can just organize that one spot in my office that keeps catching things. Then it won't distract me when I walk by. I can just clean up the coffee table. Then I will feel better about it when I sit down on the couch with my daughter. I can just... I can just...one more thing. "One more just" is robbing my peace--if I let it.
It's not enough to not do. It's not enough to cease motion. I have to calm my mind. I have to focus on nothing. I know it sounds a little silly and a bit too simple, but if I write things down, then I can stop thinking about it. Then I know I won't forget because it's recorded. Even with that, though, I don't rest easily. I have to choose to rest.
How do you rest? How do you rest your mind? Tell me in the comments below.
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